Time to Wake Up From the Long Slumber
28 July 2008 is one of the saddest day this year. A colleague is ending her marriage of 7 years and a 18 year relationship. The aftermath is a broken home, heartaches and a pitiful 5 year old daughter. Through tears, she narrated the sad story. A cheating good-for-nothing husband who only knows how to spurge and nothing more. Heartbroken and dispair, she made the wisest choice which is to end all the sufferings. There isnt much more left worth trying or humbling herself to make the jerk to stay. She has definitely done her best and he's just not worthy to deserve all the love and sacrifices she has made for him and the family. Time to move on.
28 July 2008 is also the day I have decided to wake up from the long slumber i have succumbed to for the past few weeks. It's really game over. Maybe it's just a matter who has the courage to speak up first. And he beated me to it. It came as a relief although it was stinging shock to realize he removed the attached status of his facebook (which i should have done ages ago but didnt had the heart to do so). That cowardly jerk still had the cheek to pretend that everything was fine, waiting for me to discover his cowardly action.
Tomorrow's the D Day. Closure at last. I don't know how am I going to sever all ties and contact with this person whom i have grew so initimate with over the past short 4 months. I can even remember his number in my heart. But there isnt really nothing left for me to pin hopes on. For we both have been living in denial and all thae deception for the past few weeks. Enough is really enough. It's been an emotional draining rollarcoaster ride. Up and down, up and down.
We are just not meant to be. A leopard will never change his spots. He will just stay the way he is. And i can never accept the way he is. And I definitely dont deserve all these treatment. My heart's dead. Didnt even care whether he msgs me today or not. There isnt really a point to that anymore.
Goodbye to the short-lived 4 months of sadness, pain and happiness. We both love ourselves too much. Being in love of being love. That's probably me.
Goodbye for the very last time.
28 July 2008 is also the day I have decided to wake up from the long slumber i have succumbed to for the past few weeks. It's really game over. Maybe it's just a matter who has the courage to speak up first. And he beated me to it. It came as a relief although it was stinging shock to realize he removed the attached status of his facebook (which i should have done ages ago but didnt had the heart to do so). That cowardly jerk still had the cheek to pretend that everything was fine, waiting for me to discover his cowardly action.
Tomorrow's the D Day. Closure at last. I don't know how am I going to sever all ties and contact with this person whom i have grew so initimate with over the past short 4 months. I can even remember his number in my heart. But there isnt really nothing left for me to pin hopes on. For we both have been living in denial and all thae deception for the past few weeks. Enough is really enough. It's been an emotional draining rollarcoaster ride. Up and down, up and down.
We are just not meant to be. A leopard will never change his spots. He will just stay the way he is. And i can never accept the way he is. And I definitely dont deserve all these treatment. My heart's dead. Didnt even care whether he msgs me today or not. There isnt really a point to that anymore.
Goodbye to the short-lived 4 months of sadness, pain and happiness. We both love ourselves too much. Being in love of being love. That's probably me.
Goodbye for the very last time.
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